I’m out taking a walk again

But everything is gonna be OK. That’s what he told me so I’m gonna stick with it and he told me to stay in his arms because I just wanted to leave. But I stayed in his arms for like five minutes and cried it out and I told him that I just wanted to go for a walk and he told me not to leave him but I’m like I’m not gonna leave you bro if anything I don’t want him to leave me because I’m so damaged. I’m so mentally ill. He doesn’t know what to do anymore because I just keep having these break downs. I never want him to think that he’s doing something wrong because he’s not doing anything wrong. He’s being the most amazing partner on the planet. It’s just me that has a chemical imbalance in my brain and I really need to be put on meds, but I can’t afford it 😢😢