So my mom said she’ll continue helping me out with my kids until school starts

So im gonna need to find a babysitter by then 😣😣 being a single mother is so hard, I’m just so lost and heartbroken over everything. But I’m gonna do what I gottta do for my babies. I dont need a man coming into my life stressing me out. I have enough stress. But he’s gone for good and I dont ever wanna talk to him anymore. If he wants to come around and see his kids that his choice but im done with him. Im tired of him making me cry and acting like all of this was my fault when actually he didn’t have to stay this long. He could’ve found somebody else. And honestly the first time we ever had an argument should’ve been the perfect time for him to leave. But he stayed and it just made things worse. That’s on him. Not me. I am who I am. I’m still dealing with childhood trauma and I’m just not ok. But in the beginning he said he could handle it 🙄 I even told him that he could leave me anytime I was too much. So I clearly gave him MANY chances to save himself from me