I just can’t make sense of everything

One day he’s begging to come back the next day he moves on and isn’t talking to me 😔😔

God, please help us out. Help us get through this. Help us get back together. Help him see the good in me. Help me get the help I need because I was very toxic towards him and I’ve said things to him that I’m not proud of. It hurts so bad not having somebody you truly love not be there for you. It took him so quick to move on from me and it hurts. God, please I just need my baby back. He was mine and I ruined things but I’m so sorry 😞