This weird dynamic with him

Something that may turn training into fun: do fun things that work your muscles together ^^. A long walk in a new place, learn a dance, do some couple stretching or exercises while talking, so many fun things to do in two + it will work your connection :D I saw some couples do some cool exercices on YT (very simple even), and the results are good for their bodies but also for their minds and strengthening their connection. It doesn't have to be dire and painful, when it can actually be fun :D. Seriously, even 10-15 minutes a day make a difference. ❤ Also, diet is not really my thing (I like to enjoy delicious things when life gives them), but the more mindful I am about what I eat most of the time, the lighter my body feels. Trying for balance. So it could be something related not to how much you eat but what you eat. Cook new things? It is fun to discover new options. One major thing people miss is water and sleep. Those two alone can help you burn non-needed fat ^^. Doing these little changes can make you keep in shape regardless of the hungrier periods :) and not for your husband. For you. Your husband loves you as you are. It seemed that you were insatisfied with yourself. So finding ways to make it fun will definitely help to achieve that balance :D

@TurtlePink I feel you. I know how it feels to fuel on empty engine and push through these obstacles when you already feel burned out. One day I just realized. It never ends. The challenges, the things to solve, the unplanned hoops of life, the growing demands. Somehow, despite all, we must find a way to experience the good things in life as well. That majorly means better time management and specific times set out to unwind. If you don't "make time". If you don't "make priority" of some things, life may just wash them away while you're focusing solely on surviving. It could be only a minute. But a minute in which you remember who you are. I figured.. since I reminded myself to "live" every day, even in challenges.. I notice things that make me feel alive more often and am more present in these moments / without necessarily pushing away my responsibilities. But yeah. Must find time for what matters most :)

He loves you. That's what matters most. As long as you are healthy (not talking about looks), it's fine. I remember my sis loved to play with my jelly arms. It was so genuine, I was happy too! 😆 Am I a super model now? Nah xD. But getting in shape for me is more about staying mobile and feeling strong. Also working on core strength to improve my posture. Looks are just a bonus ;). Nobody complained about my deluxe hugs so far! So having soft edges ain't too bad. Toning is something I want to do for myself though as I want to do activities that demand some stamina :D . Looking forward to long hikes, after some prep training to ensure I last the trip lol ❤