OK, let's be honest if he was to propose to me right now I would honestly say no

and I know it's kind of contradictory myself because all last year I was crying about him not proposing to me after we’ve been together for 4 years.

but yall today we talked about marriage and I'm just not really ready anymore. Idk what happened. Everything seems so real now now that I’m no longer dreaming about it. It doesn’t interest me as before when I used to cry. Because literally all day I would just dream about my dream wedding. Now I’m like meh 🫤