I’m going back and rereading my post from the beginning of the year

And I’m really not proud of myself. Since it’s been almost a year and my mind is more clear. I can process everything I was doing and I have realized I am a disgusting person. The stuff that I was sharing the stuff that I was doing. It was just a crazy time because me and my boyfriend were going through a lot and my head was not on straight. I was not in the best mental state either and I was just trying to get over him. Because when you love somebody and you don’t have them anymore, you will go crazy. You will do crazy things. I don’t even wanna tell you guys what I was doing. I mean I was posting about it, but I’m just ashamed and embarrassed that I would even share that on here. So I’ve just been deleting my ratchet posts and any post about getting with married men because I don’t want to remember that stuff. I don’t know why I feel like I have to broadcast everything that goes on in my life. Everything here is public and everyone can see it. I always forget that in the moment and then I move on and forget about the post and then whenever I go back and I read my old stuff I’m like oh my gosh. I was really out there five months pregnant and doing stuff like that all because I just wanted my ex back.