One thing I don’t understand about this whole situation with that Ryan guy

Is how can you still be in the mood when someone is begging you to stop?? HOW?? because at that point wouldn’t you feel like a monster? How does that stuff turn you on to still bust a nut? I would feel so ugly if somebody didn’t want to have s3x with me. And making somebody cry and not the good kind of cry where you’re enjoying it, but the scared kind of cry.

I just can’t get over the whole situation because at some moment during the day, I miss him and I want to forgive him and then I’m sitting here thinking about how much of a monster he is and if I was a guy, I would feel so ugly that a girl wanted to get away from me. Does that stuff not bother you men like it does women?

Because the next morning whenever he told me that he was going to work and he needed me out of the house I felt kind of ugly so that’s why I didn’t stick around whenever he told me the first time. You don’t see me refusing to listen. But no, I had to tell him multiple times that I wasn’t in the mood and he still got what he wanted. I got out of his house because I respect him because I know that “no” means ‘no” or “ i have to leave and go to work” means I have to leave too. I had no problems understanding that.