I’m scared

Hi🌸 was looking for a place to vent and found this forum. This is my first time ever trying something like this, not sure how to start 😅 but I just needed to get things for my chest and I have no one to talk to. I’m really scared of….everything. Life has been so difficult for the past few years, and every year it somehow gets worse than the last. It’s so bad that I can feel myself changing, and not in a good way. I’m so tired and stressed all the time, and anxious and worried, I’m beginning to hate everything and everyone. I don’t want to be around people, I’ve distanced myself from my friends, because I don’t seem to have anything good to talk about, and I don’t want to come across as someone who complains all the time. So I just keep to myself, but today I just couldn’t do it anymore, felt like I was gonna explode really. I want to be positive and bright and optimistic, for my siblings and aunt, but I really don’t have anything left in me. Is it okay to be sad?My mum died a few years ago, and I still don’t know how to process that. What do I have to do to feel better?

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Stephie · F

It is good to vent when you have no other option. SW is not any better or worse place because people are anonymous and while they may be judgmental at times, it will go under your skin like if you do vent on face-to-face basis with other people.

Perhaps the best person to seek help from would be a psychologist that is a trained specialist and that has experience with what you are going through right now.

It is fine, just let your anger and uncertainties out and cry or scream if you need to. Trying to overcome the loss of a loved one is never a thing of just a few days but it takes years to start to slowly let go.

However, being scared of everything is also like a trap and if you don't react, you will progressively falling into a depressive state and it will be increasingly difficult for you to get out of that downward spiral. If you think that you lack confidence, energy and resources, please seek the help of a specialist. You owe it to yourself and you owe it to the memory of your mom. She would be the last person to want to see you in that state.

None of us are psychologists or therapists but all of use want the best for you. Make this first move towards helping yourself while you still can.

Good luck.