I believe being happy is a choice we make .

yes a bit

Also true

I have an endocrine disorder. And I think I'm curing myself from it but letting it be. And not adding stress or more suffering for having it. My last blood test were ok. Not need for surgery intervention and I'm like that for four years.

Having clinic depression has been what made me to change and make other choices.

@twistermind: I'm sorry, I don't believe those afflicted can just make the choice to "snap out of it" or "think positive" "don't worry, be happy", regardless of a strong desire to do so. I realize not everyone is the same, but my diet, exercise routine, therapy and meds were a choice and they made me functional. But the clouds still come.

@bijouxbroussard: I have been thinking a lot like you. If you read some of my posts from not a long time ago, they were so depressive and I wrote them when I felt a little better.
You described perfectly, needing pills, therapy to be functional. I call it my way of surviving.
I'm in therapy currently. I found a new psychologist who is different to the other ones I had before. I needed a real change in both, my way to see life and mainly, the way I see myself.
My depressions, my personality disorders traits made me touch bottom.

I'm not saying you don't have the right to feel bad. I understand you because I'm in your same boat.