Sometimes I really just wanna do this alone without him

Since I hardly get to see him anyways. I’m so used to being alone and never having anybody. Everybody is just temporary. All the dudes I’ve been with were that way. I never had faith of them sticking around and us doing something with our life together. It’s too much of a pipe dream. Even though the guy im with now is different than the rest by a landslide and onto better things than them, I still feel so alone. And it’s not that he doesn’t love me I won’t ever doubt his love. I just want him with me more. If I can’t be with you as much I rather just be single and doing all this all by myself.