Can't sleep

I cried last night. It happens. Like I cry sometimes over pregnancy loss at least once every two weeks. Sometimes it hits harder. My current partner is an amazing and caring man. I might not have ever gotten the aknowledgement I wanted at one point. My pregnancy was never aknowledged or at least brushed off by the last partner. That's okay though. Because what matters is now. I have so much going for me.

Either way, he is so gentle and kind. This man is strong, he's not afraid of my emotions or his own. He reassured me it's okay, and he's there for me. A little bit of, "It's okay my baby," and I melt so easily.😅 I also talked to another ex of mine, the one who took care of me when I had lost my pregnancy to begin with. And I realized I was never really alone to be honest. Like I have wonderful people around me. Wonderful warm people.

I'm grateful. And grief isn't linear, it's something you may never get over entirely. I can move on but I can never forget. Accepting that reality is the hardest part. That I can't just never cry over it again(it could happen I suppose) but I still have a bad night here and there but the pain is like a gentle wave. It's a wave of aknowledgement for my own trials, it's my way I am able to aknowledge that a fragile existence even existed to begin with.