Why?

I ask myself why everything in my life is a struggle. Even things that should be easy are a struggle. No matter how much effort i put in trying 'to make things better, they all amount to failure. They blame me for things going wrong in my life even though i can't do nothing about it. No one is ever happy for a long time around me because everywhere i go trouble follows. I'm tired of being being told i'm a burden when yet again i have no control over what's happening to me. Why can't things work in favor for a change so i can find rest. It hurts so bad having people judge you when they don't know what you go through emotionally every moment of every day. I beg, i pray, i cry but the world has no time to comfort you, they can only be on your side until the reality that you can't do anything for yourself and have to rely on them for everything, hits them. It hurts so so bad but i'm in this emotional rollercoaster alone like i've always been since it happen. I don't wanna do this anymore, i'm tired. Who can help can help me unload this burden that has gotten me wishing to go to sleep and never wake up