Its gonna be a lonely Christmas this year for me. I wont be able to see my kids and my family.

But I've already knew this was coming and i've prepared myself for it. I've done my crying but I know my kids are getting the best Christmas they could ever have. Just wish I was there to see them smile and get excited over all their presents. Its like my parents are pushing me away from seeing my own kids. And I know I made the choice to let my parents adopt them and raise them but I just wanna kiss them and hug them. I will always love them and no matter what, i'll always be their biological mother. ANd my parents cant take that connection away.