On the same boat tbh.

If I'm desired by someone then there's always a "catch". They either need something from me be it monetary support or emotional support.

Never have I met someone who actually wanted me genuinely.

The thing is I don't care anymore at this point. I learnt to be independent and not depend on people for shit. I am a go getter. I used to wish I had support but I don't need that anymore as well.

Both pleasant, and sometimes unpleasant.

The good part is to feel a part of things, a sense of belonging and community, and being able to contribute things that contribute to the well being of others.

The downside is that sometimes the timing of what people want is not appropriate or even inconvenient or difficult. At times like that one needs the right way to say no.

Well...I thought that I was loved. I was engaged. It was an ineffable feeling. He cheated. The anguish has been ineffable ever since.

It's like someone put bounty on your head.

It's a good feeling, especially if you want the one who wants you. Feels like shit if it doesn't work out though.