I think that I missed a big part of my childhood and teenage years

Just a reflection but in my childhood and teens I had so much anxiety and desire to be perfect and be a "good girl" that I think that I cut myself off from many experiences. I also was afraid of revealing my true self to anyone. I also did not properly observe other people and see them for who they were because I was busy critiquing myself, trying to make sure that no flaws were visible. Im glad that kids today have social media, youtube videos where people can connect and share their experiences. If I had that my life would have been different.