How come being on your own a lot , that the mind comes up with ideas thinking your a bad person which im not

A lot a pain involved .
A lot of self esteem issues there
A lot of self pity there
A lot resentment, not sure are my resenting God .
A lot of loss with relationships.
A lot of the time thinking I'm weird which I'm not .
A lot of feeling being pressurised to talk to act sociable which at times I'm usually quiet and shy .
I'm just trying to make sense of all of this crap in my head
A lot of rejection there .
A lot of judgements there . (Somebody told me when all of that happens your getting closer to God if your being attacked by the outside)
A lot of depression there .(usually with the depression comes the self loathing to cope)
A lot of shame there (with shame then comes the guilt) .
I dont feel lonely that's the thing .

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TwiddlerofThumbs · F

Sounds like your head goes to the dark corers of your insecurities!
I'm, too, familiar with this.
It takes work, but you can shake yourself out of this. Its taken me a long time. It's not like flipping a switch. Just work on it, you can get yourself into a better place.

riseofthemachine · 41-45, M

@TwiddlerofThumbs thank you so much . I find the more you become to meet yourself the more insecure you get

TwiddlerofThumbs · F

@riseofthemachine You really can. But again, it is how we approach ourselves. I can define everything I'm terrible, every short coming I have. Only, Once I'm around other people I start to see that I might be really really wrong. Finding a new perspective is hard, but you can do it. For myself, I hear my brain start in on me and I tell myself to shut the hell up and find the things i am grateful for and that I feel good about. I try to be a lot more forgiving of myself.
But it is hard. And it takes some times.

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