I'm sitting outside my room out in the cold because my roommate made me feel like I'm a piece of shit.

And I really need to sleep IDK how to go back inside. 😞
Her exact words today were "we are all very happy and in peace when you're on your 24-hours-duty" ...well. As usual I am out and not going in.
They always make me feel small and stupid and unwanted...just like how I felt since childhood and that feeling grew until one day when I came to know a couple people who treated me nicely. And now I'm being kicked back into that whirlpool of self loath. No no no no please no.