Do you see the cycle and pattern of present experiences?
It roots from past life experiences.
I experienced the same pain from that first love thing when the story is about him then he makes her pregnant. Ouch! It is like a sword that pierced my heart which always lead me to my awakening.
It is a repetitive scheme which I stupidly repeat for all throughout of my existence.
But now, I break that cycle.
New story, new life...