what has pain done to u?

Ive become cold and bitter. I dont forgive ppl and i have alot of hate in my heart. I was never like this 😢When i see ppl wid more than me(im unemployed) i get envious. I know its wrong but thats how I feel. Its amazin how some ppl suffer so much and some not at all 😠Im jus an emotional angry mess. I dont know what to do sometimes.