But not until after the Monster manga book set is delivered on that same day, it would be just the way things go if it was delivered late, thus causing me to let my aunt and uncle down, you see they are kind family members whom i hardly ever see anymore, and they're looking forward to this time together, but the ways and means of other people, namely my family members are vastly different than my own, but it is a burden to bear, and by going through it, it will improve my character. When there i probably will give them a false sense of "spiritual progress" by showing some of my Christian resources on my kindle, but from looking at it now, i shouldn't, i should never speak of religious things again with family, not that they'll ever forget that once i did mention falteringly in voice and more lucidly in written notes some signs of a Christian origin. It's too complicated even in my most comfortable zone to be able to rationalize why i would continue to be interested in it. To speak in the first place about it is already a move in the wrong direction as long as you're thinking about it. There are multiple rights and wrongs i am considering when i try to formulate the words here, and hence it's just a labor with no real reward. What's better is to be swept away in 20 ongoing storylines daily. 10 or so mangas and 10 or so anime series. When one is alone things can be simple, as simple by itself is scary, that is why there is entertainment, which can be seen as puzzles to put together. The value placed on a thing, isn't directly about the said thing, but a reflection of the person giving it, their history and labyrinthine mental processes.