The last time I had sex was my first time, and I was 24-25 , I’m now 39 turning 40 on Saturday, it wasn’t what I was expecting I didn’t feel anything

I don’t want have sex until I find someone that can make me cum I don’t know who can make me cum or feel
Good

But my first kiss was with a one nighter, and it was terrible, I don’t know why I did it !!!!!