The needing of January has been so bad for me .. never cried so much and one bad thing is happening after another

I'm so sorry that you're having to go through so much right now - I can imagine that it is really difficult and painful. So, please know that I am here for you - and that I am sending you lots of warm and loving energy. Please remember that it is going to be okay - and that no matter how dark it gets, the sun is still going to rise in the morning. So, please hang in there - and I am right here with you every step of the way.