I have $10 in my account till Monday and I’ll receive $100, I was supposed to receive $100 but extra for my birthday but I got that a week earlier

Because I asked for it, but right now I don’t feel like I need anything right now nothing materialistic just something spiritual, I have my faith as in my religion the Baha’i faith I feel empty since I don’t go to feasts much anymore I was going to feasts when I was in, thorneside but not anymore because my mum won’t take me as she, into the materialistic side of the going as in how someone appears when going to feasts , I’d rather not argue with her so I avoid going with her , and I can’t take my support worker with me to take me because we can’t take guests to feasts just feasts, other events is fine !!!