I Hate My Birthday
My birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks and I'm dreading it. I'll be 22 and I haven't accomplished anything important all year. I feel like you celebrate when something good happens to you like a promotion or you're engaged or your family member came back from the army. It shouldn't be to celebrate being a year older when you have no possible idea if anything good will come of the next year. I'm trying as hard as I can to tell relatives that I want nothing for my birthday. I haven't even told my mom yet that I don't plan on celebrating it. She'll just think I'm saying this because I haven't been happy lately with my school but it really isn't that. It's that I always found birthdays very pointless to me. I have a feeling my mom is not going to let me get away with not celebrating it. She'll say I'm selfish for not letting people want to be happy for me being 22. It's not like I'm saying their not allowed to call me. I can't stop them from doing that. I just don't want to be celebrated. So having a birthday is for the purpose of making others happy? If the day is supposed to be about me, I should have the choice of whether or not I want to celebrate it and I don't. I won't judge anyone who celebrates their birthday but that doesn't mean I have to. I may not be able to control nature with me getting older but I do have the choice of whether or not I want it acknowledged. Happiness isn't a choice. It's something you should naturally feel. So if my mom forces me to celebrate something I have no emotional connection to, she would be giving me what I don't want instead of what I do want.