I Have Learned a Lot From Unrequited Love
I grew up getting in the traps of this kind, haha.
A few hours ago, I was talking to that one guy whom I madly fell in "like" with. I'm still too young and inexperienced, so I don't know if I really fell in love or just intensely liked someone 😅.
Anyway, this person's absence is now a part of my daily life. He's just like anybody, including me, who leaves some place simply because life means not staying in the same place and situation (or a personal belief, at least) and self-discovery. I was just a bit fascinated by how things drastically changed. The early months he's all I think about - but knowing he's got someone else and that i'm totally out of his league, all that nervous and shy feelings when around him disappeared too fast. Now, I can be comfortable around him with the painful truth swirling silently in my head.
Back then, I thought I cannot take the pain of moving on. But yeah, of course I did, it's just kinda rough getting into the process. I mean f**king difficult, hahaha.
With the few people I tell this with, they don't really take my one-sided story seriously, so I just typed it out here lol.
I will really, reaaaally miss him, though. Maybe i'll send him a first and last letter - not telling him how much I liked him, but how nice he had been to me and how it encouraged me a lot, helping me shape the person I am now. Yes, even though we didn't have that kind of romantic relationship, he's been a vital part of my growth.
Thank you!
A few hours ago, I was talking to that one guy whom I madly fell in "like" with. I'm still too young and inexperienced, so I don't know if I really fell in love or just intensely liked someone 😅.
Anyway, this person's absence is now a part of my daily life. He's just like anybody, including me, who leaves some place simply because life means not staying in the same place and situation (or a personal belief, at least) and self-discovery. I was just a bit fascinated by how things drastically changed. The early months he's all I think about - but knowing he's got someone else and that i'm totally out of his league, all that nervous and shy feelings when around him disappeared too fast. Now, I can be comfortable around him with the painful truth swirling silently in my head.
Back then, I thought I cannot take the pain of moving on. But yeah, of course I did, it's just kinda rough getting into the process. I mean f**king difficult, hahaha.
With the few people I tell this with, they don't really take my one-sided story seriously, so I just typed it out here lol.
I will really, reaaaally miss him, though. Maybe i'll send him a first and last letter - not telling him how much I liked him, but how nice he had been to me and how it encouraged me a lot, helping me shape the person I am now. Yes, even though we didn't have that kind of romantic relationship, he's been a vital part of my growth.
Thank you!
