On my way to work

I was thinking of my job at the international labor union. This makes me think of the woman who I absolutely loathed above all others. She was a blatant bully and I was not mentally healthy enough to stand up for myself.

A few years back, I sent an email to the new president telling him that if he ever wanted me back to give me a call. I know that there was zero chace of that, but hey, if you don't ask, you don't get.

I was aware that would put me back into the workplace of the person who I passionately hated for many years. But I am no longer intimidated.

My old coworker told me a few years back that this person had gone back into rehab for alcoholism. The husband she had cheated on numerous times had passed away right before covid and her quote in the local papers (he was a person of notable history) was, "My baby daddy is gone!" Horrible quote. I know she didn't really care about him, but that was what she said? Just wow.

Meanwhile, during that same time, i got myself mentally well, did things with my life that I wanted to do, fulfilled myself and proved to myself that I have more worth than to be a punching bag to someone who values theirs and their loved ones so little.

A part of me wishes the new president had reached out and rehired me. The confidence i have gained over the years has been amazing. I would no longer be a punching bag. Dare I say, I might even become a bit of a bully, but not to the lengths she did. Maybe a "Hey, alchy! How's the sauce?" every now and again. (I don't want to hear how horrible that would be of me. That is small compared to what she did to me.) But it would be a huge difference. I have become a better person in multitudes since then. She has sunk even lower. I have little empathy for her as it was of her own making. I had no hand in it.

Either way, i didn't get rehired and I know that I am a far better person than they are. That's all I need to know.