is this why i lost all my friends?.... ( kinda long story here)

i spoke to someone on here earlier that had schizophrenia and man they sounded crazy as shit, and i was thinking when i had my last psychotic episode i musta sounded exactly the same as she did, obviously not in the same context as she was speaking, everyones different but i wonder if my friends thought i was too much too put up with and so they abandoned me?

i dont blame them really in my head they all became involved in my madness (the plot by drugs gangs to murder me) i was constantly accusing them of all sorts of things because they were all in on it but i was unable to explain to them at the time that i wasnt well because for me it was all real, im sure they musta had some sort of idea though ..

but anyway they all stopped speaking to me eventually, the feeling i got is that they didnt want to be friends with me because i was crazy... now that im better i havent seen any of them in over a year and feel that i just dont really want to know them anymore... my mum says they obviously wernt my friends after all