do i really want to become seriously ill again? im undecided

i stopped taking my anti-psychotic meds today, with a plan to hopefully go insane again within the next 2 months, see theyre giving me the boot from my disability benefits, ive been on it for 2 years but apparently im better now, though at times i certainly dont feel better anyway the plan is to get a good medical report from my psychiatrist to bring to my medical assessment at the start of january, in order to scam another year of free money out of the system and then ill start taking the meds again and be better in 6 weeks... i actually have a job atm too but im allowed to work a bit and still get a decent ammount of money to cover my "extra" living costs not that there are any extra costs it all just goes into my savings account but heh im not complaining about money for nothing.... and yea i know its all kinda grim