I Hate Conflict

*news flash*
According to my soon to be exhusband...I am possessed by a demon which is why I want a divorce. Yep absolutely no cognitive thought or pain staking introspection has brought me to this conclusion. I merely a pawn in evils game to destroy his life. According to him marriage is a godly act and divorce is a Satanist Act.
So crazy how two people can have such a completely different experience yet be sharing a life for nearly 17 years.
When I finally built up enough courage to tell him I wanted a divorce... I felt completely at peace and in harmony with my souls needs. When I afterwards seceded and vowed to try and let him into my heart again I felt as if I was betraying my Astral self. Like I was resisting the desires of my heart.

Call me crazy if you wish, call me demon possessed if you must.... I know I am doing what I need to do in order to grow and heal.

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updown2020 · 61-69, M

Well ask him what would he do if he was not happy in a marriage would he stay and be unhappy or leave?

Belovebelight · 36-40, F

He says he was unhappy and that he didn't live me for about 2 years. He stayed and the feelings returned (when I said I was done) now he thinks I should stay and wait to see if my feelings change. But I don't want to ride his Rollercoaster any more. I have better things to spend my energy on.

updown2020 · 61-69, M

@Belovebelight: Yes but he is still unhappy right did he not tell you that he would go live with his mother and then changed his mind?

Belovebelight · 36-40, F

@updown2020: oh yeah but that's what he does. Every other day he trys a new angle when it comes to the divorce. In hopes that I will be hurt be what he says so that I will feel bad and stay. Him saying he was going to move with his mom was a treat...he was hoping I would cry and say no please don't go. But I didn't and then he retracted it.