There's Been a Lot Of Conflict In My Life....
...which I hate, I really do. It just gets me.......scared...and I hate being scared.
I guess it all goes back to my ex pimp, who used to really intimidate the girls that worked for him...verbally or physically...aggression was commonplace, unfortunately.
Thankfully, I got away from that.....had lots of conflict from my ex husband when he found out what I did for a living....thankfully, more verbally, but gave me many sleepless nights and made me sick to the stomach.
My ex partner kinda accepted me and my lifestyle but got very jealous....so much so that we split up....after a fair amount of conflict - mainly shouting - which just used to get me shaking and crying.....
Time moves on....maybe I matured...maybe not.....my partner and I get back together again, without any drama, and all is good...and maybe that gave me a good base to grow from, I don't know.
We moved areas, to where we live now, and I got into some conflict with some pimps that wanted me to work for them...and, this time, I wasn't all negative emotional over it - Just annoyed and [i]bored[/i] about it all.
Thankfully I got that all 'sorted' and never looked back.
Maybe my attitude has changed to conflict? Maybe it's old age? I still hate it, but I guess it doesn't have the hold on me that it once did..
😘
SJD xx
I guess it all goes back to my ex pimp, who used to really intimidate the girls that worked for him...verbally or physically...aggression was commonplace, unfortunately.
Thankfully, I got away from that.....had lots of conflict from my ex husband when he found out what I did for a living....thankfully, more verbally, but gave me many sleepless nights and made me sick to the stomach.
My ex partner kinda accepted me and my lifestyle but got very jealous....so much so that we split up....after a fair amount of conflict - mainly shouting - which just used to get me shaking and crying.....
Time moves on....maybe I matured...maybe not.....my partner and I get back together again, without any drama, and all is good...and maybe that gave me a good base to grow from, I don't know.
We moved areas, to where we live now, and I got into some conflict with some pimps that wanted me to work for them...and, this time, I wasn't all negative emotional over it - Just annoyed and [i]bored[/i] about it all.
Thankfully I got that all 'sorted' and never looked back.
Maybe my attitude has changed to conflict? Maybe it's old age? I still hate it, but I guess it doesn't have the hold on me that it once did..
😘
SJD xx
