I Am Not a Virgin

I am not a Virgin and haven't been one since I was 16/17 years old. Losing my virginity was not planned or special in any type of way, shape, form or fashion. It's been so long ago that I can't even tell you who I lost it to. It's out of two guys. I wish that I was a virgin or that I would have waited till I got married. I would give just about anything to go back to my life before I lost my virginity or before I even knew what sex was. I was a vulnerable girl and some guys took advantage of that. I let them because I didn't care. Then rumors were starting to circulate everywhere and even when I wasn't doing anything my name was still out there. It's been a long time since I've been in that life and there are still rumors going around. Even rumors about me doing or giving head to little kids which is something that I would never do. You know how people are though. They probably believed them. I have moved forward and trying not to go back or even give a f*ck about the untrue rumors, but it's hard.