im going back to closing myself off to the world.

ive been this way since i was a teen. its always felt safer not getting close to others. people have always had away of harming. i never really had a life because of it. never dated. never really done much. never had a s.o. never had many friends. its not healthy but it feels so normal to just shut everyone out. not getting hurt not caring about people that ultimately was just using you or really didnt care. i went onto social media 3 years ago. to help with my mindset as i was suffering from a dark depression. and felt like maybe i would find some friends i could relate to online.. that ended up being a mistake. im going to be heading back to my closed off state. cutting everyone out. to be alone. focusing on myself. probably the reason im pretty much a mute and have a hard time communicating. but you dont have to deal with others.

SW-User

The more you Shut your mind, the more you'll lose your tendency to see the good things. The blocked mind will never allow you to see the reality. Most of us say, oh there are no good girls out there no good boys out there, but we dont look at ourselves too. (our flaws etc). Similarly, you can never be happy if you'll continue seeing only one side of coin. Good people, Good experiences are everywhere, maybe you are looking for these in wrong places from wrong people!