If I offered to tell you with absolute certainty the time and the exact day and method of your death would you want to know?

@Nugget: Why not? You don't waste any time trying to prevent it because you can't. And you know that you will not die before that day so you can do some really crazy stuff.

@MarsSword: I don't have a desire to know. Let's keep it a surprise. Besides, I think it'd mess me up even more mentally

@Nugget: It would be a rather large mental strain.

@MarsSword: yea. If I didn't want to live anymore before the date were up, I'd try to induce a coma. I don't think I could handle it.

@Nugget: And you would fail due to circumstances outside of your control because it is a moment set in eternity that cannot be changed.

@MarsSword: but you're not dead in a coma. Either that, or brain damage.

@Nugget: I think in this case such attempts would just lower your quality of life without giving you the silence you desire.

@MarsSword: comas seem to vary in what people can do during them.. brain damage like an old lobotomy might work.
Regardless, I chose not to know.

@Nugget: I respect your choice. I think I would want to know.

@MarsSword: why would you want to know?

@Nugget: Because up until that day I would live more freely. I could act out with incredible bravery in certain circumstances. However there would still be the fear of being maimed. However the method of my death gives me some indication of what condition my body would be in at the time.

@MarsSword: you would choose your hoped-for but uncertain psychological effects over the risk of being maimed and trapped in your body..? How do you feel in life right now?

@Nugget: The risk of being maimed and trapped in my body is actually there either way, there is no new risk. There is only a piece of knowledge.

Feel in life right now? That is a very big question, there are so many things and so many separate parts.

Well I am not a cautious person to begin with.

@MarsSword: but then you'll be stuck with it. You could end up suffering for decades if you aren't allowed to die. Plus, it likely would have negative psychological effects as well.

Hm..I just wondered if you're happy overall. Maybe you're just one who never could imagine suicide as an option, regardless of excruciating conditions, though.

@Nugget: I have never considered suicide as a real option, and honestly don't think I ever will. Now, don't take that to mean I am a very happy person. I have suffered and am not a particularly happy person. I have walked some pretty dark roads through my mind. I have considered suicide in a sort of academic way in some places, going so far to map out what I would do, but knowing that I just never would. That just isn't what I would do.

My greatest fear, more than death, is being paralyzed in an endless state of boredom. That seems like hell. But I still think I would rather know the time and method of my death if it was an action.

The thing behind this question is the idea that your death is already preset and is inevitable. The only difference your answer makes is whether or not you know before hand. What would be terrifying is if the answer to this question was that it would be by suicide several months from now. Because I would know that it is not preventable and would have to know that something would happen to break me completely in the next few months. Ahhhh...terrifying. But from my knowledge of myself I would wager that that is not what I would be told.

@MarsSword: that's all I wanted to know. Some just plainly never see it as an option.

I suppose you wouldn't be bored, but I don't know if you'd be better or worse off from knowing. Stress due to lack of time is what I'd worry about.

You believe in predestination?

@Nugget: I actually don't. But the premise of this question implies it. Yes, the amount of stress really depends on the time you were given. But if the time was close I might make different life decisions. What is interesting is when you consider whether or not your death would have been different had you not be told. The very act of you being told changed what you were told in a complex paradox. However, that is only if you are saying it was not predestined.

The interesting part about my idea of predestination here is that everything else changes to put you back on course if you ever try to get off the course. Environmental factors change to force you back.

This is such an interesting train of thought.

@MarsSword: oh, I figured the stress would be there in any case at some point, but I suppose if you found out you'd live to be old and die peacefully, it wouldn't be so bad.

Yea, it is very interesting haha. I see your point of view. I respect it. :) I'll think about this more later, when I haven't been up over 30 hours, though

@Nugget: Why have you been up so late?

@MarsSword: I have neuropathy. I get pain and muscle spasms in my legs (and arms, but lesser) every night. It keeps me up.

@Nugget: Oh dear, I am sorry to hear that. I hope you can sleep better tonight. What helps with it? does stretching help or massaging? What about muscle relaxants?

@MarsSword: thank you. The only thing that seems to help is getting up and walking. I don't know much, though.

How long have you been dealing with that?

I have had both very painful leg cramps that have kept me up and while I was working incredibly painful never pain that ran up both arms from nerve damage in my wrists. Some of the worst pain I have dealt with.

The leg cramps certainly go away if I stretch on a regular basis. The nerve pain was treated with pain killers, rest, a brace, and massaging. Now that I am not doing the same job I don't get that anymore.

@MarsSword: I can't remember anymore. My memory is shot. At least 2 years, though.

😞 I'm sad to hear that. It's great you don't have it anymore ☘️🍀🕊 and hopefully won't do that job again o-o.. ?

@Nugget: It is too bad, I liked the job, but stressed my body too much.

2 years, that is a long time to have troubled sleep and muscle pain. Have you tried muscle relaxants? Talked to a therapist? Tried stretching?