If I become a lazy hedonist and abandon all my responsibilities, it is probably my partner's fault

I get so calmed and confortable I lose the desire to experience anything else. Just be loved and love.

And sometimes it is so overwhelming and I have no idea wtf I am doing.

How lucky I am my partner is not the type who would take advantage of having so much power over me? Pretty god damn lucky. This world is full of scumbags who pretend to be decent people. It is all a game of odds.