Love is like a puzzle
Love is like a puzzle, there is so many pieces that has to fit together in a relationship. If for example she want kids and the guy dont want kids thats enough to crash a good relationship. If he has other opinions than she has there will almost always be a fight and arguing and in the end they will break up. If the guy dont work and dont earn enough much money to pay for her or their family it will lead to break up. I know by experience how untrustworthy girls and guys are, I have been bullied in school by both gender but girls seems to be worser than guys because they bully in a worser way than guys do.
I have been without a girl for 38 years now and often wonders how it would feel to have a relationship with a girl but I am often thinking of what would happens if I told a girl I dont want kids, I dont want kids because of economical reasons, one single kid cost 1,5 to 2.4 million swedish cronor from birth to 18 years old, and if you dont have a job and earn enough money then there will be huge problems to pay for a family. When the girl has got the first kid she wants one more than a third and a fourth and then the cost will rise to 5-6 millions swedish cronor.
But maybe the girls also know this and dont want kids because of this then its abit easier to get a girl. Marry her is far more expensive and again if the guy has other opinions than she has there will sooner or later be divorce and then is that money gone forever.
About 4 years ago a girl asked me if I want kids with her, we had only known eachother 1 or 3 weeks and she already asked me that. I told her I dont want kids, and arent you too young to have kids. She got pissed at me and went to my apartment and started to scream and yell at me and I think the entire area heard her but I didnt heard her because I live on the third floor. Now I havnt seen this girl for four years maybe she has dated another guy that want kids with her. I regret so fucking much I told her this but I was afraid and that question scared me. I didnt know what to say. Maybe this was my only chance to get a girl and now I have destroyed it by saying this.
I can never get a girl. Girls makes me nervous and as soon I notice a girl flirting with me something blocks me and makes me paralyzed. Many girls, not all, also are very hard to get, it seems they wanna "play evil games" with the guy to see if he manage her tests. That annoys me really much, I dont want a girl that plays mean games with me. Then there is my withborn disability that makes it hard for me in my daily life, and took also more than 30 years to discover. I cant dance with her because of my really bad balance and its also really hard and not a good idea to dance with a walking frame. I have heard thngs from people that makes me sad and dissappointed and I have got really bad thoughts that I dont want to have. Everytime I see guys having fun with their girlfriends I get envy and thousands of thought goes through my brain. When a girl says to me I am not her type or I am not what she expected me to be then the first thing I think about is my disability and I am not perfect enough for her.
I have been without a girl for 38 years now and often wonders how it would feel to have a relationship with a girl but I am often thinking of what would happens if I told a girl I dont want kids, I dont want kids because of economical reasons, one single kid cost 1,5 to 2.4 million swedish cronor from birth to 18 years old, and if you dont have a job and earn enough money then there will be huge problems to pay for a family. When the girl has got the first kid she wants one more than a third and a fourth and then the cost will rise to 5-6 millions swedish cronor.
But maybe the girls also know this and dont want kids because of this then its abit easier to get a girl. Marry her is far more expensive and again if the guy has other opinions than she has there will sooner or later be divorce and then is that money gone forever.
About 4 years ago a girl asked me if I want kids with her, we had only known eachother 1 or 3 weeks and she already asked me that. I told her I dont want kids, and arent you too young to have kids. She got pissed at me and went to my apartment and started to scream and yell at me and I think the entire area heard her but I didnt heard her because I live on the third floor. Now I havnt seen this girl for four years maybe she has dated another guy that want kids with her. I regret so fucking much I told her this but I was afraid and that question scared me. I didnt know what to say. Maybe this was my only chance to get a girl and now I have destroyed it by saying this.
I can never get a girl. Girls makes me nervous and as soon I notice a girl flirting with me something blocks me and makes me paralyzed. Many girls, not all, also are very hard to get, it seems they wanna "play evil games" with the guy to see if he manage her tests. That annoys me really much, I dont want a girl that plays mean games with me. Then there is my withborn disability that makes it hard for me in my daily life, and took also more than 30 years to discover. I cant dance with her because of my really bad balance and its also really hard and not a good idea to dance with a walking frame. I have heard thngs from people that makes me sad and dissappointed and I have got really bad thoughts that I dont want to have. Everytime I see guys having fun with their girlfriends I get envy and thousands of thought goes through my brain. When a girl says to me I am not her type or I am not what she expected me to be then the first thing I think about is my disability and I am not perfect enough for her.
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