Body shapes change

I've been looking at myself over a period of time and my body has changed much to my detriment.
I was always a sporty child and in my teens I became plump due to puppy fat. But as I got older I really trimmed up as the muscles were always underneath.
In the few years where I was caring for dad, stressed with uni my crap job and relationship the motivation to do anything really d*ed out.
Although I was cycling I had sciatica and just couldn't keep it up.
I lost so much confidence and put on so much weight.
I was kind of happy that I was unemployed because I didn't have to see anyone and spent many days in bed depressed.
But something in me pushed me to get out there again and I really tried to make the most of summer, fat or not.
And what I looked at was others around me.
People in my age group 30+ tend to have bigger waistlines.
Even if they're active your body shape naturally changes. It's the progression of life.
For some people genetics work really and their metabolism holds up. But for the most part now is the time it slows down so if you're not engaging in sports or keeping to a really strict diet you won't stay "slim".

Having this perspective has really helped me to look at myself differently and even dating men that have appreciated my body for what it is too.
I'm not grotesque, I dress quite conservatively and always have... But what I've enjoyed the most is the fact that I'm not actually in pain.


I hope more people and woman can come to this and just love themselves for all they are naturally. There's beauty and merit in who you are right now.
And someone will love you regardless.
Just be happy being you...