Expressing an insecurity dating a middle class + person
So when I dated, it was a new experience and something I had troubles expressing, even to him because a part of me feels ashamed that I didn't feel like I have much to offer in a thriving or everchanging connection between different classes. Or maybe the fact I'm part of the minority pool.
When I went over there, omg, the differences were insane. They've grown up going to places and doing things with their family and friends while me and my friends and family were either up to no good, nothing or just overall broken. Like having families do special get togethers, but the only connection I did with my family.. was being introduced to the fact that the gambling scene at the Casinos was idolize as a bonding experience and nothing more.
Not many of my peers/friends go to college. It's usually involved with (drugs/alcohol/kids) and when I saw this change of him doing better in his life (excluding me). I couldn't help but feel stuck and held him back on his happiness.
But I would be lying if I said, I felt a bit intimidated that I didn't have much to say for myself and even I said, it felt like I had to hold myself back from being judged in a negative way.
When I went over there, omg, the differences were insane. They've grown up going to places and doing things with their family and friends while me and my friends and family were either up to no good, nothing or just overall broken. Like having families do special get togethers, but the only connection I did with my family.. was being introduced to the fact that the gambling scene at the Casinos was idolize as a bonding experience and nothing more.
Not many of my peers/friends go to college. It's usually involved with (drugs/alcohol/kids) and when I saw this change of him doing better in his life (excluding me). I couldn't help but feel stuck and held him back on his happiness.
But I would be lying if I said, I felt a bit intimidated that I didn't have much to say for myself and even I said, it felt like I had to hold myself back from being judged in a negative way.
