When I was a kid, because I didn't want to give up something no matter how much they beaten me
My mother said I am a whore that would not be able to make a marriage last for a week.
It is very common in certain religions to measure a woman's value by her ability to keep a mariage, relationship. Talking about divorcing someone is condescending remark, not a joke. I recently blocked someone who likes to posture as a genius here yet felt he can make that joke at my expense.
And she was right that I am difficult to love. Incredibly difficult to be with in relationship. Because I am self destructive, stubborn, set on my beliefs, hard to mold, hard to control, hard to victimize. I am a hurricane. No amount of childhood trauma has beaten that out of me.
And yet, I am loved and cherished. I don't even have to ask for it. Didn't even try to have it.
She got divorced. Her mariage was everything to her.
I don't say that with bitterness. Life isn't fair. We don't always get to reap what we sow when we make compromises we think can guarantee our goals. Life doesn't work that way.
It is very common in certain religions to measure a woman's value by her ability to keep a mariage, relationship. Talking about divorcing someone is condescending remark, not a joke. I recently blocked someone who likes to posture as a genius here yet felt he can make that joke at my expense.
And she was right that I am difficult to love. Incredibly difficult to be with in relationship. Because I am self destructive, stubborn, set on my beliefs, hard to mold, hard to control, hard to victimize. I am a hurricane. No amount of childhood trauma has beaten that out of me.
And yet, I am loved and cherished. I don't even have to ask for it. Didn't even try to have it.
She got divorced. Her mariage was everything to her.
I don't say that with bitterness. Life isn't fair. We don't always get to reap what we sow when we make compromises we think can guarantee our goals. Life doesn't work that way.
