my dad passed away this morning at the age of 68 after a short bitter battle with cancer.... ugh, i didnt even get a chance to say a final goodbye, 😭 [I Am Chinese]

we all knew this would happen eventually but fs there was so much still left unsaid, ive literally been crying all morning.... he never let on how much time he had left and was in good spirits when he went to bed last night, but this morning he didnt wake up, and now im never gonna get the chance to talk to him ever again 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭... been awake since 6am, trying with not much luck to break the news to the rest of my family who all live away, my sister lives in america, its like 5am there, she didnt pick up when i tried to call her, i left her a voicemail, its grim but what else could i do?... its a bad day all round tbh, gonna have to entertain the relatives all day today and organise a wake... wtf am i meant to do? ive never even been to a wake before.... utterly gutted today.... defo one of the worst days of my life tbh