Traveling over 4 hours nearly 5

To an place I havent been since I was 18 , and I only got to visit once , I really wanted to go back one day then 4 years later , An event is being held near there but Im staying in that city to save money , I didnt visit sooner because I was busy with so many things back then and work but finally an oppountitey came up , sorry about spelling 😹. I was excited yesterday , but now im in an bad mood because something bad happened and Im really upset and extremely worried because its one thing after another , but the city has an special place in my heart and it was the first big city I traveled to as an adult , and It just means so much to me because of what I wrote about , if you follow my posts you would have seen what I mean , I fell in love with it as soon as I arrived and I remember everyone was so nice to me even though I didnt live there and loads of really good things happened to me there so Its stayed with me ever since and I was so upset when I had to leave. But that one city changed my life and straight after my dad actually was good with me traveling since He knew I was safe and got home safely , so it just means a lot to me and A lot of people wont understand and thats ok. I will update when I arrive and my journey. And tommorow Is such an big day so I will write about that on here , Im not going to say a lot until after the event because Im an huge believer on vibes and energy and I dont want any negative outside energy so I wont say much until after the event , the main reason Im even writing on here is because Its my online diary , I know some people really like hearing about my life so I will write more afterwards. When I arrive I will be exhausted , but I will update later.