I want to love like Christ loves

If I find myself attracted to someone, to have a crush on them? I avoid them, because I like Christs type of pure innocent love, more.... I've tried in the past, yes he was tall and handsome, I don't know if I was fooling myself, but I fought against evil, which was not my desire at all! But if I examine my heart, yes my love wasn't as it should have been, no matter how much I struggled to make it so, like Christs... That is why I am happy to as it was their wish to let me go, I am happy to have let them go. I pray though, that they too receive a supernatural gift of healing like Christ heals people when I ask Him... That would be fun! I just wish him well, and am happy to move on from there...


Now, to deny myself, I am very very content with Loving the Lord with ALL of my heart, All of my soul, and All of my mind, and All of my strength...This love flows through my heart free flowing, and I'm so so happy, the Joy of the Lord is my strength...This makes me happy, I don't need any corrupt love or crushes...I am happy with the men in my life, My beloved husband, and his friends, my uncles, so it's nice to have their insights on life and shop talk...I need that in my life! I am happier following Gods way's of love, pure, brotherly, innocent, and true, yet not a crush, nor corrupt. That's all.