Some thoughts this Sabbath...

I found myself thinking about my tiptoeing into darker movies yesterday, and my feelings about this. Each year, in the fall, I let myself watch movies about darker things. I find that I am drawn to these types of movies, deep inside me somewhere, for reasons I don't really understand. 😔

After a couple of days of watching them, I start to feel bad. This happens every year. It could be because some of them are triggering due to past childhood abuse, or it could be because most of the year, I am very careful about what I let my little eyes see, or my ears hear. It could be because my heart knows I have done something wrong.😔

I usually try to, read, watch, or hear only beautiful things. Things that make my mind only think of beautiful things, to push down the evil memories that live in my mind, too. 😔

I feel like I have let Elohim down, because I know better than to do things like this, so I was thinking about this on the Sabbath, and I was drawn to this scripture

22 ¶ [m]The light of the body is the eye: if then thine [n]


eye be single, thy whole body shall be light.
23 But if thine eye be wicked, then all thy body shall be dark. Wherefore if the light that is in thee, be darkness, how great is that darkness?


[m] Men do maliciously and wickedly put out even the little light of nature that is in them.
[n] The judgment of the mind: that as the body is with the eyes, so our whole life may be ruled with right reason, that is to say, with the Spirit of God wherewith we are lightened.

Matthew 6:22-23
1599 Geneva Bible (GNV)

I was also drawn to this scripture


23 Keep thine heart with all diligence: for thereout cometh [a]life.

[a] For as the heart is either pure or corrupt, so is the whole course of man’s life.

Proverbs 4:23
1599 Geneva Bible

I think that this will be the last fall I will allow myself to watch the darker, scarier type of movies. I don't think I should let my mind be tempted by darker things anymore. I do believe it may be the temptation that causes me to be drawn to these movies. The thought of what if I just let myself go there? What if I just embrace the darkness? However, this is when the Holy Spirit steps in and reminds me of the real darkness I have already seen. How I still carry the pain of true darkness and the evil I walked through as a child. Then the Holy Spirit wraps his arms around me and draws my mind back into the light, the goodness, the love of Elohim. I am so grateful for this. If my mind were left on its own, I think I would be lost. 😔

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