For a few days, I felt so close to God... But then it went, I don't know why

Unless it is the Triune Thrice Holy God of the Bible this is all in your head.

A genuine relationship with Christ will always produce fruit- good works, more victory over sin (yes we all sin and will so for life) and you will also naturally read the Bible everyday and attend a Gospel preaching church.


But without believing on the shed blood of Christ and this being the ONLY hope of salvation, all of this means nothing.

3 day Ban !!!!!

But no way would I call him God

Probably because God never really answers. It's always a case of trying to convince oneself that He somehow has.