Shut down in my own home.... My son's best friend just asked me to not preach to him about God, or tell him when I hear Angels singing, cause it's too

@RisingMorningStar7 Actually it's really quiet, I have to strain to listen, sometimes it's a little louder but not ever loud it's always been like that, but yes they're definitely Seraphim Angels of God, Plus people are being healed from all sorts of things especially when I go to the hospital.. Now I just ask people to pray for their ailments and touch them and raise my hands and pray for healings... I also can feel stigmata in my hands and feet, no I am not bleeding but I do feel the pain, for I am crucified with Christ and yet I live, not I but Christ who lives through me... Yes I am schizophrenic, Christianity healed me from the darkest of times, Jesus has transformed me from a wicked sinner to a saint, not because I was anything special, but because He was very special! I am so in Love with Him! If you knew the hell he saved me from and gave me beauty for ashes, if He did that for you, you would be in awe and love too I'm sure of it!

@saintsong As I have experience three forms of voices in my head. but I think some are just mind coping with itself.

@RisingMorningStar7 I had my doubts in the beginning, but it if walks like a duck and quacks like a duck it is a duck! It was just consistent praising God, Holy Holy Holy and Hallelujah Heavenly songs of love, the harmonies just sounded so Heavenly... For years I longed to hear Angels instead of demons, I never knew my deepest desire would come true as it did...There are others like me that all fit the same descriptions such as stigmata, fire, facing our demons and our worlds, loving God above all else...Repenting from sins that started in childhood...Then Angels singing!!!

@saintsong hmmmm.... nice my is god telling bad stuff I dont want to hear.

@RisingMorningStar7 When I started hearing voices back in 2000 they told me too that they were god!!! I was like NO YOU ARE NOT!!! There is ONLY 1 TRUE GOD! Then the God of Heaven and Earth chose to use Christianity to save me, when I saw a vision of the Cross which brought me silence from the screams of hell. And gave me a sweet smelling perfume, called the fragrance of LIFE that I would realize that Jesus died to give me His life 5 years later when I read about the perfume in the bible being called the fragrance of life...!!! I couldn't make that stuff up, God made it so! If I ever need Jesus, I cry out to Him and expect an answer, as I tune into the Christian radio for a message.. Cause God often speaks to me through His people... I don't know if that's a gift for those who are born again, or for anyone, but it couldn't hurt?!! I hope you find your peace. Or may your darkness turn to light!

@saintsong Ive also seen like three types of visual hallcuiantions. The ones I knew from my text book were like in the movie a beautiful mind.

@RisingMorningStar7 Oh it's been so long since I watched the movie a Beautiful Mind, but I know for sure that I am under surveillance and have been ever since I dabbled into the occult when I first became schizophrenic... I don't remember anything about that movie other than the bar code in the guys wrist and that he was a Professor at Harvard and that there was a love story then my mind goes blank..I've read psychiatric books and seen so much on YouTube on it too, Plus I have a team of therapists and social workers and I had a nurse but she's on maternity leave, I had a psychiatrist she was the only one in my region but she retired, she was my psychiatrist for over 10 years, then my GP doctor took over but she took leave last month for six months. But I have a lot of help. My therapist takes me to the lake every week

@saintsong Are you still trouble by this schizophrenia

@RisingMorningStar7 I do still have an impure spirit.... Lu$t ... The Nations will drink in her adulteries not mine... Just like it's not me healing those people But God who does the healings.. It's the spirit of Jezebel that also messes with innocent people around me, and grieves me and makes me sad, because it's not how I feel, and I don't want to harrass people with an impure spirit. I do have faith though that one day God Himself He will deliver me from this one too...Like the Apostal Paul who pleaded with the Lord 3 times for the Lord to take away the thorn in his side, and the Lord doesn't because of thisssssss 7 even because of the extraordinary character of the revelations. Therefore,[g] so that I would not become arrogant, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to trouble[h] me—so that I would not become arrogant.[i] 8 I asked the Lord three times about this, that it would depart from me. 9 But[j] he said to me, “My grace is enough[k] for you, for my[l] power is made perfect[m] in weakness.” So then, I will boast most gladly[n] about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may reside in[o] me. 10 Therefore I am content with[p] weaknesses, with insults, with troubles, with persecutions and difficulties[q] for the sake of Christ, for whenever I am weak, then I am strong.

@saintsong yea, you're a schizophrenic but some bible stuff you have is out place.

@RisingMorningStar7 Well I do know that nobody knows what Paul meant when he spoke about the thorn in his side, or what it was, but it could have been anything, to which I can relate to. As well, honestly I know that through the Holy Spirits help, and those whom I have called on Christian prayer phone lines, I have cracked the code, on the world..And it's been shared with many...I am not stupid, in fact I have been enlightened and can fathom mysteries, because God made sense of it all to me. Plus I've learned to seek and love God first, that also saved me and thus made His Grace shine brighter than ever! You don't have to agree with me, you do you, but for me I know my truths.