God Did Abandon Me

I had a crisis of faith years ago and haven't found my way back to the church. I don't think organized religion is for me. I consider myself more spiritual than religious, and I no longer blindly believe what I was indoctrinated into as a child and teenager. Having said that, I do believe in love thy neighbor as thyself; do unto others as you would have them do unto you, and in being a good person, helping and caring about others and the world we share. So much of the feminine was removed from the Bible and organized religions' teachings, and I have a hard time with that.