I Am a Christian and I Love Jesus

Even after my trust towards God has been broken; I saw the Holy Spirit in the form of a white cloud, come up to me and kiss me on my forehead last night...I still love God, but I don't trust Him anymore. Because the word says that false prophets would go out into the world and disceive many and the love of many would grow cold, and so that's what they did to me. They sent a psychic to read me and spread half truths and lies about me....The devil is in the details........How can I ever trust God again for saying that would happen and allowing it to happen to me......Then comfort me through it all by sending me His love. What is wrong with me? Why can't I understand why He allowed everyone to hate me based on rumors a schizophrenic spread?