Yes God has helped me to overcome so much, but I still have some of my demons....I'm not perfect.
I still have the occasional recurring nightmares, super scary, I also have nightmares of sleep paralysis in my legs, images planted in my imagination, hearing voices saying can you hear me...And catching glimpses of things in the corner of my eye... Yes I boast that I can hear Heavenly Angels singing Holy Holy Holy and Hallelujah and that I am seated in Heavenly places, like everything is glorious and perfect! I can only say honestly it is much much better with God, at least I can experience the Heavenly... But I must put on the armor of God....Ephesians 6:10-18
New International Version
The Armor of God
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God....
I am trying to not feel ashamed for what the devil does to me as my own... Like when my face contorts when he manifests when he wants to, I don't want to own that, I lay it down at the feet of Jesus... I need Jesus just as much now as I did when I was truly struggling a few years back... I know that this battle won't end until I take my last breath here on Earth and lay my eyes upon Jesus face to face. I'm sorry I am not perfect, I am just keeping it real, They exploit me as a saint, yet I battle my own demons daily, I am no more than just a mentally ill woman...Who has faith in Jesus... It's Jesus Christ who does the good in my life, not me.
New International Version
The Armor of God
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God....
I am trying to not feel ashamed for what the devil does to me as my own... Like when my face contorts when he manifests when he wants to, I don't want to own that, I lay it down at the feet of Jesus... I need Jesus just as much now as I did when I was truly struggling a few years back... I know that this battle won't end until I take my last breath here on Earth and lay my eyes upon Jesus face to face. I'm sorry I am not perfect, I am just keeping it real, They exploit me as a saint, yet I battle my own demons daily, I am no more than just a mentally ill woman...Who has faith in Jesus... It's Jesus Christ who does the good in my life, not me.
