What is going on in my life?
Matthew 14:22 Immediately he made the disciples get into the boat and go ahead of him to the other side, before he sent the crowds away.When he had done this, he went up alone to the mountain to pray. Evening fell and He was alone there. The boat was already many furlongs away from the shore, being tossed by the waves because the wind was against it.But in the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. When the disciples saw Him walking on the lake, they were afraid, thinking it was an apparition, and they screamed out of fear
[media=https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Djv6QZ2PbHo]
. 27 Immediately Jesus said to them, “Take courage! It is I, do not be afraid! »Then Peter answered, "Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water." 29 And he said, "Come." Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. But when he saw the strong wind, he became afraid, and as he began to sink, he cried out, "Lord, save me!"Immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him, saying, "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?" As they got into the boat, the wind died down. And those in the boat fell down before Him, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God."In the first reading, the apostles specially choose 7 people who will distribute bread and alms and help poor people who have nothing to eat. They will engage in charitable works.
So they noticed that dealing with the poor distracted them from the word of God, distracted them from God, distracted them from something much more important than just bread. The same motif appears in the Gospel, where the apostles, after multiplying the loaves, make a strange journey through darkness, perhaps more strange than through a lake.This crossing is a symbolic, metaphorical image that takes place in the life of each of us, when we leave bread, when we leave physical and material life, and care for this earthly world.Because it is enough to kneel down to pray in the evening, leaving dinner behind, and one already experiences darkness, experiences a storm, because anxiety already comes. I think: I don't want to pray. I will postpone this prayer, and I will not pray otherwise.This is such a prosaic example, but it already shows what happens to a person when he begins to pray. Every entry into the world of prayer, into the world of God, into the Eucharist, into confession, wherever one would encounter God, is immediately associated with a certain struggle, with a certain struggle with darkness, which is not experienced when, for example, one eats dinner or breakfast. , or dinner.
Here one has no worries, except about gaining too much weight and losing the right figure, but one does not have this experience of darkness. Nowhere does a person experience the struggle within himself more than when he leaves the physical bread and enters the spiritual bread, prayer.The world in which Jesus is, every event described in the Gospel, in the Gospels, even the darkest, sheds light on our lives.Whatever is written there is a kind of reflector for us, evoking certain reflections. Every event, even the most dramatic, has the power to comfort and sustain our spirits, precisely by the power of the Holy Spirit who permeates the entire Bible and also pervades those who accept this Bible with all their hearts.And this is what this fragment from the Gospel of Saint John is like today, it tells about a dark and at the same time dramatic event, which, however, ended in salvation and explanation for the apostles thanks to the presence of Jesus.But is it only about an experience that can be had, for example, on the Baltic Sea, or on Lake Balaton, or on the Canary Islands, or elsewhere, that will make the boat or ship shake?NO. Not only this, the Gospels are certainly not intended to teach us how to go to the sea or spend our holidays on the Masurian lakes. It is a completely different experience, it is about the experience of darkness that always accompanies us when we leave the world and worldly concerns and enter the world of prayer.Everything in the Bible is like a matrix, a form into which, by putting our life experiences, it all takes shape and forms into a sensible, understandable, ordered sequence of facts.Let us imagine that everything we experience in life is such a shapeless mass, heated and melted by our experiences, a mixture of feelings,
experiences, various observations, words, and only this shapeless mass, when placed in the Gospel, as in a matrix, it it's just taking shape.This is what the Bible is for, to give meaning and shape to what we experience. This is why we read the Bible, to understand ourselves and what is happening to us, and what is understandable and sensible is easier to accept.I think that each of us notices this in life, that if something makes sense and is understandable, it is easier to accept it.However, if something seems senseless and completely incomprehensible to us, even if it is useful, a person is reluctant to accept such an experience. That's why God gives us the Bible and says: "take this Bible, use it to make sense and understand what you are experiencing."It's easier to agree with something whose meaning and value I understand. Even if it was a dramatic and dark experience, when I understand that some suffering, for example, was necessary for me, and I see its true value, I can even be grateful for it.However, even if I experience something nice and pleasant, but I don't understand why it is happening in my life, I don't understand its meaning or value, I don't know if I should even be grateful for it.It sometimes happens that in difficult moments, or those that have broken us painfully, when we are unable to cope on our own, we come to someone and ask for advice, or some explanation, or even to listen to what is pressing on us somewhere, what is for us a storm, darkness, some internal discharges.We go to someone close, trustworthy, friendly, and revealing our secret, full of pain and darkness, to him, we grasp his every word, every instruction. Especially when someone explains something to us with love, wants to help us, then we code everything, accept it,and suddenly, after listening to this advice, this translation, we say: "well, indeed, now I see that it makes some sense", and then it becomes easier to accept it, and we accept it.Well, Christ is such a friend who not only knows how to listen, but above all knows how to put our lives in order, who knows how to explain everything to us, and he gives his explanation in the Holy Scripture,especially all those moments that are the darkest and darkest. Jesus is able to explain and organize them, give them meaning, all this thanks to the cross, thanks to the Bible, without it it would be impossible.Every event of my life, your life, every moment, every day, every night, every joy, every pain, can be met with understanding from the Bible, with understanding from Christ,as soon as he entrusts to the Holy Scripture what happened to us.Sometimes it is the opposite, that the Holy Scripture meets us with a proposal of certain events so that we can think about them before we experience them.So, for example, today we read about the storm of life, about darkness, about how the apostles experienced fear even of Christ himself, because they saw him walking on the waves, and it seemed abnormal to them, so they thought: "it is definitely not from God ".He was terrified by all this, and when we reflect on such Gospel proposals, in other words, meditate on them, we anticipate events, we simply prepare for such events in our lives,because it is easier to accept something that is even dramatic and dark, if a person he has prepared for it in advance, and this is the meaning of, for example, reflecting on the scripture, meditating on the scripture, because one is preparing for what may happen to him.
[media=https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Djv6QZ2PbHo]
. 27 Immediately Jesus said to them, “Take courage! It is I, do not be afraid! »Then Peter answered, "Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water." 29 And he said, "Come." Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. But when he saw the strong wind, he became afraid, and as he began to sink, he cried out, "Lord, save me!"Immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him, saying, "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?" As they got into the boat, the wind died down. And those in the boat fell down before Him, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God."In the first reading, the apostles specially choose 7 people who will distribute bread and alms and help poor people who have nothing to eat. They will engage in charitable works.
So they noticed that dealing with the poor distracted them from the word of God, distracted them from God, distracted them from something much more important than just bread. The same motif appears in the Gospel, where the apostles, after multiplying the loaves, make a strange journey through darkness, perhaps more strange than through a lake.This crossing is a symbolic, metaphorical image that takes place in the life of each of us, when we leave bread, when we leave physical and material life, and care for this earthly world.Because it is enough to kneel down to pray in the evening, leaving dinner behind, and one already experiences darkness, experiences a storm, because anxiety already comes. I think: I don't want to pray. I will postpone this prayer, and I will not pray otherwise.This is such a prosaic example, but it already shows what happens to a person when he begins to pray. Every entry into the world of prayer, into the world of God, into the Eucharist, into confession, wherever one would encounter God, is immediately associated with a certain struggle, with a certain struggle with darkness, which is not experienced when, for example, one eats dinner or breakfast. , or dinner.
Here one has no worries, except about gaining too much weight and losing the right figure, but one does not have this experience of darkness. Nowhere does a person experience the struggle within himself more than when he leaves the physical bread and enters the spiritual bread, prayer.The world in which Jesus is, every event described in the Gospel, in the Gospels, even the darkest, sheds light on our lives.Whatever is written there is a kind of reflector for us, evoking certain reflections. Every event, even the most dramatic, has the power to comfort and sustain our spirits, precisely by the power of the Holy Spirit who permeates the entire Bible and also pervades those who accept this Bible with all their hearts.And this is what this fragment from the Gospel of Saint John is like today, it tells about a dark and at the same time dramatic event, which, however, ended in salvation and explanation for the apostles thanks to the presence of Jesus.But is it only about an experience that can be had, for example, on the Baltic Sea, or on Lake Balaton, or on the Canary Islands, or elsewhere, that will make the boat or ship shake?NO. Not only this, the Gospels are certainly not intended to teach us how to go to the sea or spend our holidays on the Masurian lakes. It is a completely different experience, it is about the experience of darkness that always accompanies us when we leave the world and worldly concerns and enter the world of prayer.Everything in the Bible is like a matrix, a form into which, by putting our life experiences, it all takes shape and forms into a sensible, understandable, ordered sequence of facts.Let us imagine that everything we experience in life is such a shapeless mass, heated and melted by our experiences, a mixture of feelings,
experiences, various observations, words, and only this shapeless mass, when placed in the Gospel, as in a matrix, it it's just taking shape.This is what the Bible is for, to give meaning and shape to what we experience. This is why we read the Bible, to understand ourselves and what is happening to us, and what is understandable and sensible is easier to accept.I think that each of us notices this in life, that if something makes sense and is understandable, it is easier to accept it.However, if something seems senseless and completely incomprehensible to us, even if it is useful, a person is reluctant to accept such an experience. That's why God gives us the Bible and says: "take this Bible, use it to make sense and understand what you are experiencing."It's easier to agree with something whose meaning and value I understand. Even if it was a dramatic and dark experience, when I understand that some suffering, for example, was necessary for me, and I see its true value, I can even be grateful for it.However, even if I experience something nice and pleasant, but I don't understand why it is happening in my life, I don't understand its meaning or value, I don't know if I should even be grateful for it.It sometimes happens that in difficult moments, or those that have broken us painfully, when we are unable to cope on our own, we come to someone and ask for advice, or some explanation, or even to listen to what is pressing on us somewhere, what is for us a storm, darkness, some internal discharges.We go to someone close, trustworthy, friendly, and revealing our secret, full of pain and darkness, to him, we grasp his every word, every instruction. Especially when someone explains something to us with love, wants to help us, then we code everything, accept it,and suddenly, after listening to this advice, this translation, we say: "well, indeed, now I see that it makes some sense", and then it becomes easier to accept it, and we accept it.Well, Christ is such a friend who not only knows how to listen, but above all knows how to put our lives in order, who knows how to explain everything to us, and he gives his explanation in the Holy Scripture,especially all those moments that are the darkest and darkest. Jesus is able to explain and organize them, give them meaning, all this thanks to the cross, thanks to the Bible, without it it would be impossible.Every event of my life, your life, every moment, every day, every night, every joy, every pain, can be met with understanding from the Bible, with understanding from Christ,as soon as he entrusts to the Holy Scripture what happened to us.Sometimes it is the opposite, that the Holy Scripture meets us with a proposal of certain events so that we can think about them before we experience them.So, for example, today we read about the storm of life, about darkness, about how the apostles experienced fear even of Christ himself, because they saw him walking on the waves, and it seemed abnormal to them, so they thought: "it is definitely not from God ".He was terrified by all this, and when we reflect on such Gospel proposals, in other words, meditate on them, we anticipate events, we simply prepare for such events in our lives,because it is easier to accept something that is even dramatic and dark, if a person he has prepared for it in advance, and this is the meaning of, for example, reflecting on the scripture, meditating on the scripture, because one is preparing for what may happen to him.
