I'm going to Hell

I've come to the realization that there is nothing I can do to prevent the inevitable. I'm going to Hell, and no matter how much I pray, no matter how much I beg God to just change me, to make me normal, nothing changes and it hurts because thats going to make me spend eternity in Hell. And I don't want to be attracted to women, I've tried just not finding them so very pretty, their skin is just so soft and their voices are like honey and I've tried not finding it so attractive but I can't. I can't repent because I can't stop it. And I'll plead with God, I'll wear my cross, I'll write lines, I'll write notes to Him, but nothing works. I've tried everything. I'm so upset and scared because I don't want to go to Hell, I've always wanted to be in Heaven with my family, I tried so hard. No piercings, no tattoos, I haven't started swearing until recently, praying daily, going to church every Sunday, reading the Bible as much as I can...but I know it won't work because I'm a sinner. I'll always be a sinner. I'm so, so scared.