I Am a Christian Goth
I know I have always been different. I also know that ever since I was young, I was raised as a Christian. The goth part didn't clearly appear until I was in 11th grade. Now looking back, I liked a lot of gothic sort of things anyway. I just didn't know they were considered gothic~ In English class, I loved the dark, deep and romantic poems and stories like Edgar Allen Poe and the story of Markhiem. I liked ravens and bats because no one else around me did.
Once I discovered what goth was, I became totally enamored with it. (I only discovered it because my classmates called me goth because of my style of dress - which was heavily Visual Kei influenced) Now I do consider myself gothic but I don't want to completely claim it until I meet another goth. I don't want to misrepresent the subculture or anything. I've read that the underlying philosophy that makes goth...goth is "the ability to find beauty in unexpected places, even in the grotesque things of life." I definitely do that. My taste in clothing, media, and even some decor is dark and/or grotesque.
The thing that makes me unsure about whether or not I am indeed goth or not is the definition of goth i often see which is something having to do with enjoying the music and knowing all the old goth bands and such. I think that style of music is alright but I prefer symphonic metal, rock and hardcore sort of music. Though I also enjoy classical music and even neo classical. So is being a goth dependent on the music or the mindset? If it is upon mindset (and i suppose from that comes my taste and preferences) then I am indeed a goth. The thing is, I guess I'd be classed as a "Happy goth" because I am a really energetic person around my friends. That's a stark contrast to the stereotypical goth huh~? In an attempt to redeem myself alittle, I do often scare my friends in family. i even scare myself sometimes because I can be quite the creeper lol
Now as a Christian, I desire to always be one; goth or not. God has made Himself personal to me more than once and even if I do wander off from Him sometimes....I don't really want to fully fathom my life without Him included in it. It all just seems to lacking meaning without God.
I hope to meet other Christian goths someday. I'd love to hear about your experiences and your preferences and such. I'd even like to meet a goth in general~ ^_^*
By the way! Have you all heard of Christiangoth.com ?
It is amazing and has helped me feel accepted in God's eyes when I was hurting because of what other people said due to my "dark interests"
Once I discovered what goth was, I became totally enamored with it. (I only discovered it because my classmates called me goth because of my style of dress - which was heavily Visual Kei influenced) Now I do consider myself gothic but I don't want to completely claim it until I meet another goth. I don't want to misrepresent the subculture or anything. I've read that the underlying philosophy that makes goth...goth is "the ability to find beauty in unexpected places, even in the grotesque things of life." I definitely do that. My taste in clothing, media, and even some decor is dark and/or grotesque.
The thing that makes me unsure about whether or not I am indeed goth or not is the definition of goth i often see which is something having to do with enjoying the music and knowing all the old goth bands and such. I think that style of music is alright but I prefer symphonic metal, rock and hardcore sort of music. Though I also enjoy classical music and even neo classical. So is being a goth dependent on the music or the mindset? If it is upon mindset (and i suppose from that comes my taste and preferences) then I am indeed a goth. The thing is, I guess I'd be classed as a "Happy goth" because I am a really energetic person around my friends. That's a stark contrast to the stereotypical goth huh~? In an attempt to redeem myself alittle, I do often scare my friends in family. i even scare myself sometimes because I can be quite the creeper lol
Now as a Christian, I desire to always be one; goth or not. God has made Himself personal to me more than once and even if I do wander off from Him sometimes....I don't really want to fully fathom my life without Him included in it. It all just seems to lacking meaning without God.
I hope to meet other Christian goths someday. I'd love to hear about your experiences and your preferences and such. I'd even like to meet a goth in general~ ^_^*
By the way! Have you all heard of Christiangoth.com ?
It is amazing and has helped me feel accepted in God's eyes when I was hurting because of what other people said due to my "dark interests"
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